Just when I thought I was getting the hang of this whole life thing, 2020 came and flipped the switch on us.
As we begin a new year that will no doubt linger with the darkness and heaviness of last year, I find comfort knowing that deep down, we know what to do when we find ourselves in the dark.
While 2020 won’t be missed, it’ll always be remembered for the challenge it was. It was a year of pure fear and discomfort. Of everything being thrown off balance and just trying to find footing somewhere that didn’t hurt. A year of being locked away – unloading the dirty laundry of our past, ironing out the ache and the loss and the sadness of our now. A year of missing people and places and sitting silently under stars with just our thoughts as company.
We questioned a lot. We dug deep. But mostly?
It was a year of simply trying our best in this tunnel of uncertainty – and damn, did our hearts give it their best.
I saw the hard, quiet work they did this year – all the strength and story they spilled. The hearts that carried the heavy into another day – in the breaking, the change, the sit still. The hearts that wanted to mend other’s wounds while healing our own. The hearts that still found reasons to tap dance against our ribs in the midst of all the pain and fear.
When we couldn’t find the light, our hearts learned to glow in the dark.
This year may have brought so much up to the surface, but it also brought a sense of self reliance. Instead of living in a world of chaos or a head that isn’t prone to slowing down, I found a place of solace deep down in my beating heart.
I made a home in this pulsing thing, soulfully filled with all the things I love, value and cherish. Here, there’s a fireplace that burns of unwavering faith, and plenty of hope I can reach for like coffee. From here, I can see all the other porch lights of hearts that refuse to turn off – helping us find our way to one another.
2020 took so much, but here’s the biggest thing I took from this dark year – there is always a porch light on somewhere, willing to welcome you in. My goal for this year is to keep making this thing inside my chest a good place to come and be.
